For as long as I can remember I have known I was adopted; all of us kids were. And throughout my childhood, my teen years, my 20s, 30s and now into my 40s I always imagined meeting my birth mother.
On the morning I turned thirty a thought occurred to me that I had never had before; I wasn’t the only one experiencing this birthday on a very personal level.
I made a couple attempts in my thirties but the efforts from the agencies were few in contrast to the financial investments. And, quite honestly, I felt as though she made a difficult decision to give me up and would not want to relive that past.
Three months into my 41 st year my older sister mentioned Patricia from Adoption Linx to me stating she was planning to employ her to help with her search. On a Monday night I mentioned in a phone call to my sister I was going to start my search the following day. I called Patricia that Tuesday morning with as much information as I had and before I left for work she called back with my birth mother’s maiden name. By 12:30 that same day Patricia called me once again stating she just got off the phone with my birthmother and that the three of us were going to have a phone conversation at 2 p.m. In 41 years I never imagined I would actually hear those words, especially so soon after my search had begun.
The initial phone call between Patricia, my birth mom, and I lasted about 20 minutes and was a bit awkward at first. But Patricia was so helpful for both of us; walking us through what me may experience emotionally, arranging future phone conversations as well as how we should arrange to meet. We had a very nice conversation for about 2 hours and I confided my greatest fear; that she wouldn’t want know me. She told me her greatest fear was I had forgotten about her. We concluded with an agreement to meet the following Friday.
Within three days, everything I have known for 41 years has changed and I look forward to the discovery of my history, my family and my new life.
All my life I have been someone’s son but now I’m someone’s baby.
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